If I examine myself, I know that I'll find a list of things I desperately (or just moderately) am longing for. Let's see what those are...
I want to get my fingerprints on "Franny & Zooey" (J.D. Salinger)
I want more sleep
I want more motivation to read my books for school
...so that I'm not up late so that I can get more sleep
I don't want to feel hate and tension towards other people, because we've all got our own faults and problems
I want to feel God in my life more
I want to be more confident so that I feel like a whole person and not one thrown around by feelings and what other people say
I want to stop itching from that long, hot shower I took
I want thrill in my life but also diligence so I won't get all caught up in looking for thrill but not finding it because I'm anxious about an agenda I didn't finish
Sigh . . . .
Lots of things. My back is slouched, I have something like a subtle headache from getting too much sleep at the wrong time, and my eyebrows are in a worried, stern position. My last wish is:
I wish I could leap out of my body as a terrifying skeleton and beat my self-centered, -pitying, -seeking, -righteous bit of flesh and muscle into pulp with a baseball bat.
That is all right now.
3 comments:
hmm...good post.
i've had my fingerprints all over franny and zooey.....literally.
the ink the publishers used is SO smudgy...my prints are slowly blackening its previously white cover. it's a wonderful book; puts me in an interesting mood every time i read a bit of it. i'm almost done...maybe i can mail it to you? if you'd like.
that "terrifying skeleton" bit is genius! sometimes i get so disgusted with myself...it'd be so great if we could do that.
i like posting things like this...lists, almost.
it seems to bring things into perspective.
You mean you like posting things like this, or you like it when I do, or you like it when anyone does in general, including yourself?
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