Arrogance,
Judging,
Delusion,
Misconception,
Misquitos in my ear,
Getting hit by a flying piece of rock from a weed wacker,
Waking up at 12pm or past,
Being a bad driver,
Having bad posture,
Walking funny,
AIM (not the best outlet of communication),
Email (makes me uneasy for some reason. Probably has to do with Covenant always giving me notifications, etc.),
No music,
No Rufus Wainwright,
Getting mediocre grades,
Being told how to do something I thought I was good at,
Having my character put in a box,
Saying something totally weird and uncalled for,
Walking away with regrets,
Being a moron,
Being a moron and not knowing it ("Catcher in the Rye" quote: "He just looked at me with his big, stupid red face...All morons say they aren't morons...I told Stadladder to give Mrs. Schmidt the time. Mrs. Schmidt was, like, 65." -Holden Caulfield)
Anxiety,
Worry,
Stress,
Too many tough choices at once,
Big groups of friends (can't focus on anyone it seems to me!),
Pain in my neck,
Making Natalie mad,
Making what I feel was a bad impression,
Being selfish,
Being proud,
Not knowing when to take a chill pill,
Not relaxing (goes along with talking weird, regrets, anxiety, and stress in a way..),
Getting so lost in what I'm doing I lose track of reality and the way things really are,
Being impatient (well sometimes I enjoy it. heh, "RYAN GET IN HERE!" or, "MOM, JUST CHHIILLLL." I feel like Ron Weasely when I say that.),
Having complicated, negative feelings about the 7th Harry Potter that causes me to stall from reading on (but you know what? who cares what people have given away to me. I just need to finish it and convince myself that I hardly have a clue to what happens in the end!),
Being unable to get across what I want to,
Not making clear sense with my words,
Being mistaken for having a loose grip on reality (when really my mind is just generally a little lost in what I'm doing or saying and my organization skilled are rather discombobulated...wait a minute...maye that is a loose grip on reality. Haha, whatever.),
Feeling that time can't ever fix things,
Not believing that things can get better,
Not believing God,
Not trusting in Jesus,
Not asking,
Not speaking up when I want to (I recall vaguely my last class at Covenant, in 3d design--I didn't care how stupid I would sound--Professor Morton was like, "Now, what is different, obivously different, about this lamp project, from our last project? Visibly different." And I was like, "Duhm, they light up, thur!" [Well actually I was just like, "They light up!" but I mine as well have said the Duhm and the sir with a lisp.] Then he made a reference to what I said, making fun sort of of what I said, but it was good fun, and I just smiled. I like speaking up, speaking my heart when I feel that I want to, no matter how out-of-touch it may seem. Blah, anyway.),
Not getting enough sleep,
Being laughed at too much ("It's just a joke, duuude!!" [Thinking: I'll show you a joke: five of 'em, right here, buddy." :) )
Doing the wrong thing with my time,
Putting people on pedestals,
Caring too much (as in too much)
Taking. myself. dead. serious. RAR!
So there you have it, a small (cough) list of stuff I really don't enjoy much uh'tall; things having to do with my inner self, and things that I experience within the life I've been given. I know, I know, this all must be sooooo interesting. Well, maybe soon I'll post about this awesome walk that I went on Friday afternoon. I had many adventures, including finding two, well, you'll see. It was incredible though, and the bizarre thing is, I found one of the same thing halfway down the mountain at Covenant, when I took a walk along Scenic Highway my first semester there.
Natalie called me from downstairs. I think she wants me to hear some new music? Perhaps some new Rufus Wainwright songs? YES!--Nope, nope, false alarm. Turns out she was only watching a R.W. music video that, she said, actually turned out to not be so great. Well, well. Too bad. Bad, bad.
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